don’t panic!

i went to the panic/jack’s mannequin concert last night with caitlin, john and lindsay, what a bad night for it, so snowy, took an hour and a half to get from boulder to denver, our seats were ok, john and lindsay were on the floor which was not that great because we got there late, jack’s mannequin already started playing, we missed the first opener, the guys that sing the snakes on a plane song, but what can you do, weather difficulties

me and caitlin when we got there

we planned to eat dinner before but that didn’t happen so we both go the phoenix combo, a beer and the phoenix hot dog, i got a canadian molson, it wasn’t half bad, i might be coming around on beer, but yeah, that hot dog was not messing around, enormous, just how i like it

my camera didn’t take very clear pictures of the stage, sad =(

i thought panic was pretty good, the show was very strange, circus theme, people did a bunch of acrobatics, ppl on stilts, very performance art and bizarro at the same time

holga holga

i just bought a new camera, the holga, i’m so excited, it says one day shipping but i forgot to change the shipping address so it’s going to my house down in l-town
   

    

it was made in hong kong 1982, just three years before i was born, it really should have a chinese name “ho gwong” meaning “very bright” i’m so excited, you have have multiple exposures on a single frame and the camera leaks light making cool frames, muahhahahhahahaha

ahhhhhh

finally took the gre today, i did pretty well, 500 on the verbal and 750 on the math, i’m satisfied with the verbal score, i think i could have done better on the math, i ran out of time, i couldn’t believe it, i spent too much time taking it slow, i kept telling myself, don’t rush, read the question and all the directions  because this is the real deal, but yeah i think they’re good scores, i just randomly chose schools to send my scores to, i was going to check into that but yeah whatever, it doesn’t really matter right, i think i want to study pharaceutical engineering, we’ll see, we’ll see…..

saw here on earth tonight, what a crappy movie, how could she seriously fall in love with that guy, some asshole that with her boyfriend at the time burned down their family restaurant, eh yeah what are you thinking, and then she has cancer of the knee somehow, ummm ok, hamen’s coming home tomorrow, wonder what she got me from mexico…

new shoes baby!!

i got the cutest dress today and these shoes that look like the picture except there’s also a strap that goes around the ankle, i’m thinking of cutting that off, it’s just annoying there and doesn’t really do anything, and i got a really cute pokka dotted top, and other sweater slip on shoes, oh so cute, shopping puts me in the best mood, i love trying on clothes, especially stuff i would never buy, i’m always surprised when it looks great, and i actually want to get it

wow, why would you do that??

i just found this, apparently thai girls get multiple boob jobs so they can be this enormous, crazy huh? that looks so fake, as in i wonder if this stuff is real, who in their right mind would undergo such a drastic boob job, they probably can’t even walk

fall break

of course, i’m not doing anything, i never do anything, but right now i feel better about it, i hung out with eric last week, like the first time in a very long while, i love hanging out with that boy, he’s just laid back and normal, well not really normal, laid back, he’s laid back, anyways he asked me what i’ve been up to and stuff, i said nothing cause i’ve been depressed about stuff lately, talking about that, i realized, i’m young and i still have so much time to do whatever i want, and there are so many things that i want to learn how to do or just do, i forgot all that crap when i thought i needed to feel something or be someone that i should be, 1) i want to skateboard ultimately down folsom but my next mini goal is to skate down the hill off folsom on colorado, just on the sidewalk, i want to learn how to do this zigzaggy snow boarding thing 2) i want to make a quilt from all the scrap fabrics i have, i just looked at bunch of patterns i think i’m going to do a star pattern 3) i want to master a new song on the piano, i haven’t played in so long, i tried to pick it up again, but just get impatient, i need to stick it out 4) i want to go to the new art museum, i love museums!! 5) i want to take a road trip somewhere, anywhere i haven’t been, ooooo maybe to yellowstone or something like that 6) go snowboarding this winter! i haven’t been since freshman year, if i move away from colorado and i didn’t go this year, i’m going to be sad 7) i want to watch all the movies that i have on cds, so many movies, so little time i want to go to concerts in venues i haven’t been to yet, gothic, red rocks, 9) i want my gpa to go up this semster, it doesn’t matter if it’s only one thousandth of a point, i want it to go up 10) i want to do the puzzle that i bought when school started but haven’t even opened up yet, i love puzzles, brings me back to days of my youth 11) go dancing, dips, turns, ooooo baby

dark blue

have you ever been alone in a crowded room? jack’s mannequin, i love their music, i can’t wait to see them in concert, i guess caitlin’s gonna go with me that aj doesn’t want to, i gave him his stuff back tonight, that mean’s i’ll never see him again, i can’t concentrate anymore, i don’t want to do anything, lauren went to texas today, i wish i went, i love traveling, even just going to the airport, i like that too, not even going anywhere, i just like the idea of getting away and escaping everything that you don’t want to deal with or face, i hate how i act or react to things, tonight in art class, we had a critique, and i had to put my drawing on the bottom so when it got to my turn to talk about my piece, people in the back couldn’t see, so they wanted me to move it up and it’s not a big deal at all, but getting it off the wall and then tacking it up made me so flustered and i don’t even know why, well i’m weak so it took me a bit to push the tacks in but then i could feel my face getting red, and that makes me feel embarrassed and gets me even more flustered over something so silly and irrelevent, i just don’t understand why i can’t control myself the way that i want to

mondays

so the weekend is over, did i do anything fun?? anything?? nope, friday i felt so crappy, i hate you period, it’s not even the bleeding part, well partly, but my legs turn to jello the first day and cramps just make me want to die, i had to go into the lab, which is where i am now, it sucks, i’m testing out the new ramp rate i set, so exciting!!!!    NOT, that’s from borat, i guess that movie was ok, definitely not as funny as some seem to think though, but i studied for the gre all weekend, i don’t know if it’s helping, especially the verbal part, either i know the words or i don’t, even trying to learn the prefix, suffix stuff is crap because there’s always exceptions, if you break down some words, from the prefix, suffix you’d think it means one thing, but it really means something completely different, i don’t know, but i guess i should study since i paid over 100 bucks to take it, went home saturday for soup, i love soup!!! it’s so good and relaxing, oh before i did that i went to the boulder public library, (skated there) i don’t know if i want to go back there to study, it’s so sketchy, i remember that from the last time i was there, there’s a lot of homeless people that go there to hang out, actually i don’t know if they’re homeless but just dirty looking people, and i know i shouldn’t judge but yeah, they look dirty and one guy was listening to this cd player there and he kept mumbling to himself, yeah there’s wierdos everywhere right, but he kept getting louder and louder, you’re in a library buddy, and then i heard what he was saying, stuff like, why are you coming through the music, i don’t want to hear you anymore, stop talking….. so creepy right, i was like, ummmm i’m ready to get out of here, crazies are not for me

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